It's TIME

What I am about to reveal has been top secret up until today.  I have decided that in the spirit of Spring Cleaning and getting rid of all my old crap I don't use or need, I will also purge a secret or two. 

There is only one person that has held this secret with me.  It is, of course my partner in crime & most awesome sister, Lisa.  Kudos to Lisa for her years of silence.  Also, I am very aware that lots of friends know who this is so, uh, yeah.....I am ready to be a bit embarrassed.  

Okay, enough stalling.......here we go....

When Lisa & I were sent to Provo to go live with our grandparents we were a bit like two fish fresh out of the water, but soon made some good friends at school and at church.  We both have lots of great memories.  Like most girls in high school,  we had lots crushes on all sorts of different boys!  A few of those crushes worked out pretty well, BUT......... I had one small hidden crush that kind of ended up a tiny bit of a secret obsession. 

This boy probably had no clue who i was, but that doesn't ever matter, does it?  Oh my goodness, he was all those things one stary eyed girl might imagine:  He was smart and had a great smile.....he was into sports, handsome, popular, blond and always had a gaggle of female admirers.  I teased Lisa about lots of things, and she always gave me a hard time about him. 

It was obvious to me that Lisa didnt have the faith in love as I, a mature girl of 16 had.  That's why I, as the oldest, was always right about these things.  One night as Lisa and I got ready for bed, I ended up betting her a zillion dollars that some day he would call me.   

So the months went by, then a summer and soon i began my senior year.  I had a promising "hi there"  from him once in the hallway but even after winning quite a few similar bets,  by the end of high school it looked like I would be working out a payment plan with my dear sister.  And, as it does, life went on.

Lisa would laugh at me over the years and I would just remind her what I believed to be true! My theory was that he was afraid of showing his hidden love for me.  It just wasnt our time, and  I'm sure my name was scribbled in the back of his locker as well!  

Then, years later when I was married and pregnant with my 4th child fate stepped in.  I walked in the kitchen and started putting groceries away.  I saw that I had messages on the phone so I pushed the button for speaker phone, and listened as I put the groceries  in the fridge.  I heard a message about an overdue library book and then it happen.  I heard this message "Hi June, this is Todd Seamons.  From Timpview.  And I was going through the names on our graduating class......................"

I started screaming and missed everything after the word class.  Yep, I was a grown woman, pregnant with her 4 child and I was screaming like a teenager at the mall who just met Justin Bieber!  I couldn't dial the phone fast enough!!  It rang once.......It rang twice...... and then I heard a voice say "hello?'  and that is when I yelled YOU OWE ME A ZILLION DOLLARS!!   It was a beautiful moment.

The reason I mention this now is that I saw a picture of him the other day online while looking for a doctor's office.  I took a pic and sent it to Lisa.  The message said "my almost husband ;) "  So there it is.  The secret is out.  Oprah is right, It feels good to let go.  Farewell Todd, alas we were never meant to be.

She was smart enough to say

"I'll take that bet!"

What I am about to reveal has been top secret up until today.  I have decided that in the spirit of Spring Cleaning and getting rid of all my old crap I don't use or need, I will also purge a secret or two. 

There is only one person that has held this secret with me.  It is, of course my partner in crime & most awesome sister, Lisa.  Kudos to Lisa for her years of silence.  Also, I am very aware that lots of friends know who this is so, uh, yeah.....I am ready to be a bit embarrassed.  

Okay, enough stalling.......here we go....

When Lisa & I were sent to Provo to go live with our grandparents we were a bit like two fish fresh out of the water, but soon made some good friends at school and at church.  We both have lots of great memories.  Like most girls in high school,  we had lots crushes on all sorts of different boys!  A few of those crushes worked out pretty well, BUT......... I had one small hidden crush that kind of ended up a tiny bit of a secret obsession. 

This boy probably had no clue who i was, but that doesn't ever matter, does it?  Oh my goodness, he was all those things one stary eyed girl might imagine:  He was smart and had a great smile.....he was into sports, handsome, popular, blond and always had a gaggle of female admirers.  I teased Lisa about lots of things, and she always gave me a hard time about him. 

It was obvious to me that Lisa didnt have the faith in love as I, a mature girl of 16 had.  That's why I, as the oldest, was always right about these things.  One night as Lisa and I got ready for bed, I ended up betting her a zillion dollars that some day he would call me.   

So the months went by, then a summer and soon i began my senior year.  I had a promising "hi there"  from him once in the hallway but even after winning quite a few similar bets,  by the end of high school it looked like I would be working out a payment plan with my dear sister.  And, as it does, life went on.

Lisa would laugh at me over the years and I would just remind her what I believed to be true! My theory was that he was afraid of showing his hidden love for me.  It just wasnt our time, and  I'm sure my name was scribbled in the back of his locker as well!  

Then, years later when I was married and pregnant with my 4th child fate stepped in.  I walked in the kitchen and started putting groceries away.  I saw that I had messages on the phone so I pushed the button for speaker phone, and listened as I put the groceries  in the fridge.  I heard a message about an overdue library book and then it happen.  I heard this message "Hi June, this is Todd Seamons.  From Timpview.  And I was going through the names on our graduating class......................"

I started screaming and missed everything after the word class.  Yep, I was a grown woman, pregnant with her 4 child and I was screaming like a teenager at the mall who just met Justin Bieber!  I couldn't dial the phone fast enough!!  It rang once.......It rang twice...... and then I heard a voice say "hello?'  and that is when I yelled YOU OWE ME A ZILLION DOLLARS!!   It was a beautiful moment.

The reason I mention this now is that I saw a picture of him the other day online while looking for a doctor's office.  I took a pic and sent it to Lisa.  The message said "my almost husband ;) "  So there it is.  The secret is out.  Oprah is right, It feels good to let go.  Farewell Todd, alas we were never meant to be.

She was smart enough to say

"I'll take that bet!"